My Tears for Ka’bah

I often recall the little me who grew up visualising the black and golden cube 

Who did not know how it felt to the eyes, what was it’s size absolute

All I knew was that this most precious structure on the face of earth 

Was the House of Rabb Al-Aalameen - Rabb As-Samawaati, Rabb Al-Ardh! 

I was taught to say “Allaahu Akbar” and commence my communication with Allaah

I was told that HE is watching me and listening to me while I was in Salaah

I was assured that HE is pleased with me while I was facing the Qiblah 

And every prayer only strengthened my love boundlessly for the Ka’bah! 

Step by step I understood the greatness of its location 

My heart melted each time to know the details of its foundation

I fell in love with everything it related to of Hajar, Ismaeel and Zamzam 

Peace and blessings of Allaah be upon the family of Father Ibraheem! 

When I learnt the beautiful Seerah of the beloved of Allaah ﷺ

I was mesmerised with the event of the change of Qiblah 

I felt that this strong attachment that I have for the Ka’bah 

Is a sign of subconsciously following a beautiful Sunnah! 

With every heartbeat that longed for a dreamy future 

A dream to circumambulate the Ka’bah my heart would nurture
I longed for the hand that would hold mine in the Mataaf
A companion who would match my steps in Saai and Tawaaf

My Duas for a caretaker - a simple traveller towards Allaah

The only worldly desire I had was a gift of a grateful Umrah
The journey of this life I wished included this destination
With an eternal companion who would be a source of my salvation

Perhaps, for a reason wiser my Rabb extended my wait so very long 

My anticipation was put on hold, my choice proved so very wrong 

The Ka’bah of my childhood dreams once more replicated 

I was blessed with a little companion, who just like me anticipated 

With an ageing body and weakening heart when I prostrate today 

The tears for Ka’bah flood my eyes and my lips quiver to say
Ya Wahaab! With the fate of prostrating before You, please honour me
That when I raise my head my eyes do not just visualise, but see

Ya Allaah! You alone do know the longing in my heart 
Before I reach the blessed door, do not let me from this world depart 

Ya Rabb! choose me once while my body has so much of strength 

That I may reach Your House on my feet and worship You at length!

Ameen.. 

~UmmHashiR